Friday, January 27, 2006

He could have said NO



Can I change your life in 24 hours ??? Thats What i asked him. Can I Take you for 24 hours and change your life ? I thought for sure he would say NO .. I was sure he would say NO I mean he was married he had comitments. He had flirtied with me from the moment we met... We had joked about how difrent our lifes were.. How free i was to do anything... So after a few weeks i Said ... Give me 24 hours and I will change your life .... I thought he would say NO i mean he was married he had comitments he was a christian..... I thought he would say NO ... I knew he would say NO .... Then we could finsh our little flirting game ... I would feel like I had done all i had to (by asking) he would say NO and it would end .... I thought he would say NO .... BUT He didn't .....He said he would call me latter .... and i Joked with him as if .... Just say NO i said .... I thought he would BUT he didnt ....He would never call me i thought He would just say NO and it would be over this little flirting game .... BUT he didnt ... He said he would call me latter ..... I thought he wouldnt .... BUT he did ...... Friday week he said ... 10am for 24 hours he said ..... change my life he said .... I thought he would just say NO but he didnt .... I mean he was married he had comitments.......BUT he didnt .... Friday week he said ..... 24 hours .... change my life ... he said ......Pick me up from the airport at 10 am he said ...... See you then he said..... BUT i thought he would not be there ... I thought he would just say NO ........ BUT he didnt and he was ...... Why was he there .... why did he not say NO ..... I mean he is married ... he has comitment .... It could have ended this little flirting game ..... He got in my car without a word ..... without a word he just got in .... he could have said NO ... BUT he didnt ..... we drove fast ... out of town away from His life ... away from my life ..... NO words not a one ... ... 24 Hours I said ....... Yes he said ... how can you change my life ..... I smiled as we drove ... away from hes life away from mine ...... I pulled into to a bush track i know so well....i know it well i love it here ..... The smell of the ferns the smell of nature ...... far away from hes life ...... at home in my bush ......... This is great he said with a smile ..... OH we are not there yet we have to walk i said ... are you sure .... i said i can take you home ... He could have said NO .... i mean he is married he has comitments he is a christian ...... BUT he didnt ..... i grabed a bag and motioned him to follow me .... He didnt have to follow me... he could have not .... but he followed me into the ferns ....... down the trail ...... Rain he said ..... wait up he said ......we stopped as the lightning crashed through the sky it was 12 noon but it was dark with a storm ..... do you know where your going he said ..... Shhhh! i said ... trust me i said .... the rain touched my face ...... close your eyes a second i said ..... feel the rain ..... taste the rain ........ feel the storm ..... smelll the ferns .... become one with your sourounding s......... breath slow i said ....... RELAX......... the water touched our faces .... ran down into hes mouth .... the smell of the wet ferns was to die for ...... THUNDER .........LIGHTING....... i take hes hand........ i touch hes hand ...... we feel the energy in the air ...... He could have said NO ..... i took hes hand ....... we walked ....... the rain is cold .... the air electrict........... the smells of peace and nature ..... This is living i say ........ we climb the slippry rocks to my water fall ....... Oh WOW ..... he says ..... this is fantastic ....... Shhhhh! I say .......... there are no words .... this is my place in the world ...... this is living ...... He could have said NO .... lets swim i say ....... this is my home ...... this is living ...... close your eyes i say ........ i strip and dive into the cold cold water of my fall ........ are you coming i say ....... He could have said NO .... I thought he would say NO .... I mean he had comitments ...... he was married .... he was a christian .... he was a father ...... He could have said NO ...... I turned my back and swam away under the water...... The water was cold ... cold like ICE....... i heard a splash behind me but i didnt turn ...... under the fall i swam .... under the water ...... i surface under the fall ...... cold cold water on my head ........ on my skin .... It clears my head of everything ..... ICE cold water ...... he is here ... he is with me ..... under the fall ...... there are no words ..... Shhhhhhh! I say ...... feel the peace i say ........ the ICE water clears my head ..... the water touches our skin ..... I hold hes hand ....... this is living i say .... this is my home ..... this is my place ......... SHHHHHH I say ...... we hug in the water ........ Ice cold water........ I swim away .....my skin crys out the water is cold ..... so very cold ....i climb out on a rock ..... into the rain ........... i walk to my bag ...to my towel ...to my clothes ......... He is following .... he dosnt have to ..... he could say NO ..... he grabs my arm hard ..... Hey i say .... easy i say ...... he spins me around fast ...... i drop my towel ..... Hey i say ...... he looks me in the eye ...... we are wet .... we are cold ..... we are naked in the bush .. at my place ... in the rain ..... I look at hes tight grip on my arm .... i look at hes eyes .... Hey i say ...... he pulls me close .... i look in hes eyes ....... He could have said NO ..... I mean he is married .... he has comitments .... he is a christian .... he is a father..... i look at hes eyes .... he releases his grip...... i look at hes eyes ... we are wet in the rain .... we are naked .... and we are kissing .... warm kisses in the cold cold rain .... warm lips in the cold cold rain ..... we are cold .... we are kissing ..... we are naked ... we are at peace .... he could have said NO ..... He could have said NO ................... the lighting crashes overhead and the thunder claps ......... and i am at peace ..... and we kiss with warm lips in the cold cold rain ...... and we are naked ....... and I COULD HAVE SAID NO ...... I COULD HAVE SAID NO ............ NO ...... but i didnt .......................................................................................................................................

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

confesion time on sarahs blog i see..... looks like we could be here a while ..... no actually thanks for sharing and love the way you wrote this ... nice style .... makes me feel like i am in the rain watchin ... like the pervert i am ha ha ha ha .... Peace Saz...

Anonymous said...

I read that, and I feel so...naked

Anonymous said...

yes your a slut .... fuck you

Sarah said...

omgosh anonymous coments put your name to it ......
Thanks MK hope you like the honesty and the style i dont know why i wrote it like this just seems to flow like that