The weekend is over and Its over

Hey space kids, well the weekend is over and its also over with Rob it was kinda a joint desion even if I made it .. you see things were going ok but just ok and I want more ... I was not in love with him and he was not in love with me so no heart break if anything a slight weight off my shoulders to be honest... Its a shame but I am sure there is more out there for me .. so Its back to seeing what the future brings???????

So what other news ... well sorry to say not much ... Its getting cold and dark real early and I am feeling like hiding away for the winter its great to see some rain and all I just forgot what its like when it gets dark so early and so late ... feels like 10 pm at 6 pm but you get that no matter where you are I guess .....

OH and another thing I shaved my head again its kinda funky and mean looking why I dont know but needed the change and didnt have a tattoo in mind lol .... well I do but I am not ready to start on that one yet ... so for the next while I will next to no hair but hey it will grow back real soon so nothing to worry about ... I hope ... lol

Take care friends
love and light
Sarah
hugz and kisses

Mothers Day Varekai

Well after a sleepless night mothers day came about now as you know I havent seen or heard from my mum in years!!! untill a few weeks back when she got intouch with me and then we talked on the phone a few times in the last mth she lives in Melbourne now and anyway we decided to meet up ... I also was going to Melbourne to see Cirque du soleil so I thought I would combine the two and make a day of it taking my mother to see Cirque at the same time at least we would have something to do rather than dificult conversation and we would be in a public place so less chance of Me comiting murder with so many people around (Note I only said less lol)

Anyway we met for lunch at Southbank which was ok only she turned up totaly under dressed I am not complaining only that if she could have made some effort what the hell I can get over it right .. anyway we didnt talk much and when we did it was mostly shit anyway I didnt want to tell her anything she could use against me at some latter date and so I answered most of her questions quite vauge She told me alot of what she was doing and I was polite about asking all the right questions about how she is etc .... for the most part I guess It was positive but not something we will do anytime soon So anyway we ate I payed (nothing new there) then walked down to see Varekai by cirque du soleil,

It was Fantastic They sure know how to put on a show!!!! I totaly recomend it to everyone given the chance!!!!! trully I was so impressed by the performance the costumes the lighting everything was great you just didnt know where to look I totally wish I had run away to join them at a young age !!!!!

So anyway I guess overall it was a nice day I talked to my mum first time in years and we didnt argue perhaps there is hope yet ... but dont hold your breath!!!!.. I know I know life is too short and I am a forgiving soul But not forgeting so lets just see as time moves on!!!! Best of all I got to go to the Cirque with my mum something I never did as a kid ... and lets face it I am still a child after all ...

Love and light
Friends
Sarah xoxoxox

How to find words

Today I feel cranky I don't want to do anything I don't want to see anyone I just want to sit and stare mindless into the TV or something of that nature ... Robbie is coming over in about 30 mins and I don't want to see him .. Perhaps I will ask to go see a movie so I don't have to talk to him... That doesn't sound good dose it?

I have just got back in town after a few weeks on the road and I want to get back on the road ...

I think I will end it with Rob soon he isn't the one he never is going to be the one so why do I waste my time with him????

Anyway on a brighter note I am seeing alot of bloggers get annoyed and pissed off and confused by blogging and peoples comments ... Its always stunned me as to why I blog at all I mean I am normally a fairly personal person I still haven't worked out why I would write anything on here stuff that I don't say to my friends ... OH I remember I don't have friends lol ...

Narrr Perhaps I will have to make my next post very personal and on my inner most thoughts and fears ... now that's a scary thought should I tell you about the voices and the monsters that visit me when I am all alone in the dark ... I know we all have them .... So what is your greatest fear? what scares you? What has hurt you and revisits you ?? Tell me yours and I will tell you all mine in my most intense and deepest post yet (next week sometime)