Thursday, September 28, 2006

photos from my cell phone in Melbourne







The view from my room at Crown Towers

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

My Weekend romp !!!!

Posting from Melbourne Vic ... Its so nice here sitting in the food capatial of Australia and at quote "One of australias premier hotels"

Anyway I find myself reporting on yet another weekend of fun, drinking, clubing, and rooting around ..lol

So Friday I went and saw KENNYFrom the biggest festival to the smallest church social, Kenny Smyth delivers porta-loos to them all... gotta say I laughed my arse off at this one .. if you like aussie movies you will love this one try to get to see it if you can .. some fave quotes "there is a smell in here that will out last religin " and " here is another example of a two inch arse hole and out one inch pluming"

Anyway saturday night I caught up with John again .. he came to see me while I was catching up with some other friends over some Margiaritas anyway after that we went to see a band for a while and ended up at a night club in central sydney where i jumped the line and walked straight in .. gotta love having frinds in high places or should that be low places .. lol ....

Anyway cutting along story short we ended up back at his place at 5 30 am .. totaly tired and worn out from hours and hours on the dance floor I swear its been so long seice I have danced all night like that so anyway went to bed too tired to fuck (you know that tired drunk messy fucking) so we both fell asleep I kinda heard him get up about 10 am but I was still sleeping at 1 pm he came in with a hot coffee and b/fast. (what a nice guy) I ate then we went out for a smoke it was stormy as there at the time so we headed back to bed to keep warm we talked and talked and smoked and talked .. well you get the idea..

I got to ask the big question which is "what are we and were are we going?" he said and I quote "Its not just a sex thing" but " we are just getting to know each other and I dont want a relationship at the moment"
I explained that while I can live with that I am looking for more and thats were I am at. So for the time I am ok with what we have going on and will keep an eye out for Mr or Miss right to come along and hope that somewhere down the line things might get to where I want them with us who knows what the future holds ... He drove me home at 7 pm sunday after spending 24 hours with me ... YEA for that

I am happy and enjoying my life all the same
anyway as my eyes struggle to stay open i will leave this post
take care everyone and thanks for the friends who email me
love and light
Sarah
PS. I can now upload photos so look for that soon
see ya

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Yet again another bites the dust

I have been stewing on this post for about a week now and after getting permision from those involved (with name changes) I can finaly get it out ...

So Lets start at the begining when I use to go to church one of my good friends (yes i have friends) was just about to get married to a young upcoming preacher which was fantastic only for the fact that she was young and had not known the guy all that long but they seemed happy and i was happy for them at the time .. i guess looking back I did feel they were young and had only been going out for about 6 mths before hand but what did I know ..

anyway jumping fwd to a phone call I got a few weeks back from her .. she told me that they were spliting up and she needed help so anyway I helped her out by flying her to my place at Echo Point and giving her some of what she needed being space and cash and all the suport i could .. It was then she told me about all the pressure the church had put opon her at the time to get married and latter to stay married even though she was not happy and has not been for along time .. the echos of what happaned to me were very plan to me see my story and made feel some pain yet again

Now my thoughts are plain .. the church I feel really has it wrong here regarding relationships between boys and girls, men and women, I feel that relationship should be left alone for people to work out and not used as a tool for the church to get involved and pressure people into the whole marriage thing .. (do i sound like a scorned woman) I hope not I am just saying that i feel the motives behind their thinking are more concerned about kids having sex than about what is best for the couple involved !!!!

If all sin is equal then sex is no more sinful than lying about something or having thoughts about someone elses wife or hubby something i am sure we have all done at one time or another (perhaps its just me) but really guys sex is not the big deal that some preachers make it out to be .... One preacher that I actually admire for the most part John King even went so far to say that when a man breaks a girls hyman on there weding night that blood forms a blood covernet between the two (miss spelt) I dont know if thats true or not but I gotta say Its a hard perfect world he is living in if he thinks that is the case ...

I guess in what i am trying to say is SHAME on the church that pressures young people to get married SHAME on the church that trys to control the interaction between the sexes and SHAME on the church that dosnt act as Christ did ...

I believe that while the church persists in this manner than they should expect what they now have and that is a divorice rate the same as the world around them .. but I would also add that included in that 50% of church relationships failing they should also include that normally one or both partys fall away from the church !!!! what is wrong with these people ????

anyway had do get that one off my chest ..

love and light to you all
especialy all my married and Church loving friends
peace and hugz to you
Sarah xoxoxoxox

P.S blogger will not let me upload photos .. that sux !!! bloger beta can kiss my skinny white arse !

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Daydreaming again

So Tuesday has been the hotest day in like ever and the hotest September in years i think we hit 30 C or close enough .. dam we are in for a long hot summer thats for sure its only just the start of spring !!!!!

I have been thinking and dreaming alot in the last two days still playing"groove coverage" alot .. dam i love it but it means i bop along everywhere i go and it also means i drive faster with dance music blasting away ... but i think at the moment the best sound system i own is in my car .. gotta change that soon ...

dreams have been weird perhaps i watch to much tv lattly or someting but but then again who really knows if dreams mean anything or just random thoughts ? perhaps flash backs .. I have also found myself drinking alot this week for no reasion and while I am still adicted to Quick Fucks its not a good thing to be doing full shots for those of you that dont know them they are
1 cl Bailey's® Irish cream
1 cl Kahlua® coffee liqueur
1 cl Midori® melon liqueur

giving you Alcohol (ABV): 22% (44 proof)
Thats gotta be bad for ya in large amounts .. but hey Never bothered me much !!!!

Anyway I guess not much to say and all ...

been thinking of late if its worth my blogging at all and trying to decide if i keep this up or not. any thoughts or coments ????

love and light to you all
Sarah
hugz ya all

Monday, September 18, 2006

weekend report (sorry its personal)

Gotta tell ya all about my weekend was so ... blow my mind ..

Saturday a new friend called lets call him John .. I met him at the speed dating i think i told ya about him .. we kissed abit on the dance floor

anyway as Mike has been fucking me about (not literaly) I decided to go out with John I went over to his place first .. He has like a night club in his lounge room .. full bar , lights . and a kick arse music system with millions of disks so anyway while he was getting ready I cranked up some old school dance music and poured a six (quick fucks) (my fave) anyway when he got ready we danced and danced in his lounge room and did shots


we danced to some of my faves .. groove coverage poision, nin cover etc etc old skool rave songs we kissed abit and i did a bit of a strip for him .. just a tease !!! was so much fun

anyway we went clubing after that and but that is where i got a phone call and sms from a friend in trouble .. so i had to leave the club and taxi it 30 mins to her place to take care of some guy that wouldnt leave .. just my luck .. but John was very understanding and we were going to catch up latter at 4 am i finaly got left my friend who was panic but ok .. anyway i couldnt raise John .. he was prolly out dancing and shit .. or drunk so anyway i went back to his place and was going to just sleep in his bed but thought better of it so i got my car i was sober at this time and jaket and went home

that would have been the end of the story execpt for a phone call on sunday arvo ..

john called and we talked about what happaned on saturday night .. etc anyway he said i should come over .. i said i was just about to take a nap as i was tired and not much company he said he was tired too and sugested we i should come over and nap together ... anyway i said one hour and i will be there

so anyway ... here is what happaned next ... he still hadnt had a shower so he was going to shower and said if i wanted to go to bed i could .. so i did ... anyway what followed was 2 ours of some of the best fucking ever ... and ever is along time
i think the words of nin closer some it up for ya without photos lol

You let me violate you.
You let me desecrate you.
You let me penetrate you.
You let me complicate you.

Help me; I broke apart my insides.
Help me; I've got no soul to sell.
Help me; the only thing that works for me
Help me get away from myself.

I want to fuck you like an animal!
I want to feel you from the inside!
I want to fuck you like an animal!
My whole existence is flawed.
You get me closer to God.

You can have my isolation.
You can have the hate that it brings.
You can have my absence of faith.
You can have my everything.

Help me; tear down my reason.
Help me; it's your sex I can smell.
Help me; you make me perfect.
Help me become somebody else.

I want to fuck you like an animal!
I want to feel you from the inside!
I want to fuck you like an animal!
My whole existence is flawed.
You get me closer to God.

Through every forest, above the trees.
Within my stomach, scraped off my knees.
I drink the honey inside your hive.
You are the reason I stay alive.


So today i am sore .. lol sore arms sore legs sore knees sore tounge sore abs giggles and its a good sore ...

So anyway i think i have a new fuck buddy .. well i am sure i will get a call back on that one ... but just filling time for mr right to come along ...

so tonight i will go to sleep tired but happy ...

take care friends
and play safe .. (not that I do )
see ya soon
sarah
hugz and kisses

Monday, September 11, 2006

What a rollercoster of a weekend

ok so wow i am pooped ... after what was the perfect friday night I got a call from the man on Saturday arvo. saying that he didnt want us to continue that he had issues he had to deal with and the most he could offer me was friendship ... I was like What the Fuck !!!!!! I was confused, upset and angry .. so i spent saturday night upset and drinkin and smoking and worryied .. On sunday I sent him a TXT saying
"can we please talk? I will be at the tea shop at 1 pm "
hes reply
"Yes I will be there"
so we met at 1 and I made him sit and listen to what I had to say
I told him how I feel and why I feel and how I wanted to stay and work through anything and how I would do the hard work to make it work with us that I would go away or take a step back or whatever it takes ...

He thought about it he explained a few problems he has but in the end he said ok no garantees and I said i didnt ask for that I just wanted to have the chance and get to know each other better ....

So we are back dating i dont know if it means that we are B/F G/F at the moment or just dating but we are still working and hopfully things will keep getting better ...

I guess nothing is easy as it should be these days when relationships are concerned and I think the boy just got alittle scared .. something that I told him I am as we let down our guards ..

He is coming over to my place for coffee on Thursday which should be nice I even cleaned up the other day .. I guess that is love when sarah dose the dishes herself !!!!

Oh by the way now that it is spring it actually snowed here the other day ... dose that help you people trying to find out where i live .. lol

see ya soon
sarah

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Big news ... well some gosip anyway

So here it is .... are you sitting down ... please sit down ... ok .... Sarah has a Boyfriend ... there i said it .. omgosh what has the world come to ... dam ..

ok so yes Its kinda offical I have a boyfriend now this is just weird for a few reasions first for the most part i have been single for about 4 years or so and for the most part in that time while dating around i have been seeing mostly girls .. so I guess that means I have swaped teams again.... Now I could go into all the messy details about my last 4 years and my bisexual nature but for now I am not going to I guess I will be having a long talk about that one when it comes up in our relationship at some point in time .. We had a great long talk last night about all kinds of things and explored alot of my past that I never talk about and I took down alot of walls that I have up .. we talked about Noah and about the beatings ... we talked about where I am and where I want to be .. we talked about my youth and france ... covered alot of ground which left me feeling very "raw" and exposed but He was great he held my hand and let me get it out he huged me when I needed it he asked all the hard questions and I was open and honest ... well anyway ... it was a rough old night but a very good one we got close and he told me about hes past which is nice and normal ... lol ... SO in dumb high school style I asked what we are and is there an US and are you like my boyfriend now ... lol stuff like that ... and well yes there is an us and yes he is like my boyfriend and we are just starting a journey and going to take very small steps .....

So what dose that mean for me ... well not much right now only that I have someone taking me places and spending weekends with me and stuff ... like I said its going to be a long slow journey and maybe it will work ... just maybe

Anyway I dont want to say to much about him only because its my blog and I should not say things about other people .. I can tell you hes a banker ... that is a B there he works hard but only 4 days aweek .. work is inportant to him but people always come before hes job .. He has been single awhile and waiting for the right person .. chosing not to waste hes time on the wrong person .. he likes to hold my hand when we walk and chosees hes words well ... he is well read and very very well dressed ..even if a bit of a metrosexual .. hes cute and talks alot but also listens to me ...

I guess the main thing i wanted this post to be about was to say ... hey I am in a good place at the moment and hey I have a man beside me to hold my hand ... and yes that is all we do at the moment just hold hands and walk and talk .. like I said little steps ..

This is a post I never thought I would write ...

Be happy for me ..
sending you all ..
love and light
sarah xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Im BBBAAACCCKKKKK..... goodbye steve

Hey well got the pc fixed ... seems I had a huge storm here the other night that took out my power supply along with my dvd player ... but its all back and working fine now... gotta love the geeks that know what goes on in the box under the table ....

So last weekend report ... Well went out till about 4 am again with the Boy and some others it was a fun night but didnt really get a chance to chat about anything serious with the man (that was ok) and hes friends was funny even if they wanted to know the storys behind my Tats ( I dont think the boy had seen them before) but he was kewl with them ...

anyway we were going to go out to the winery on sunday but the boy gave me a call saying he was sick and couldnt come .. I thought .. geat I fucked up and this is a real lame way of dumping my arse ... anyway he sujested we meet for coffee anyway latter in the arvo so I said ok ... now i thought things were going to end bad and coffee was a waste of time but we chated and he really was sick and still came out to see me and all ... so end of the day we talked about some serious stuff and I think we are both heading in the same direction .. might be slowly but that is good also ...

I ran into J on friday arvo we just waved and kept walking .. I wonder what she would think if she knew I was dating a Guy .. actually its a little funny I wonder what some people will think .. I guess that is one thing we will cross when we come to it ..

On a Sad note Good Bye and G-d bless Steve Erwin We didnt agree on everything but hes heart was in the right place ... Oh and steve you should have used sunscreen (BECAUSE IT BLOCKS THE RAYS!!)

On that tastless note
take care people
love and light
Sarah xxooxxoo

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Pc problems

hey guys and girls .... sorry to say I have major puter problems and will be out of action for most of the week ...

will be back posting asap ... gotta hate pc problems


on a good note things are going well with the boy ... just had to add that ..

take care back as soon as i can

sarah
hugz and kisses

Friday, September 01, 2006

Oh my gosh its the weekend already .. YES!

So weekend plans ????

well glad you asked ... drinks with a few friends tonight including my boy ( well soon to be my boy if I have anything to do with it)

Saturday not much just a drive to a small town to watch a house auction (gee i need a life)

sunday I am taking the boy for a drive to a small wineary for lunch and wine its a 45 min drive through the mountains and the winary is small. YOu can sit and drink and eat while overlooking the vinyard with the mountains in the background ... most nice ...

So Sunday is Fathers day here in the land of OZ ..... not the best day for me normally cause unlike most people I never met my dad ... guess I was not worth hanging around to get to know ... Really I am kinda kewl with it 99.% of the time these days .. still would like to meet him one day but im over it ... he missed out on alot and nothing will or could ever change that .... so for me its just a day that will pass like any other ...

Dont hardly believe its September already and here I am without my spring body yet ... what to now panic ... narr I think this year I will go with the this is what you get... I mean fuck it im 30 this year ... I even bought anti wrinkle cream today and cream for puffy eyes ... see I am going to end up in one of those homes soon I guess for old people ..... boo hoo!

Well enoough crap from me today
see ya soon
Sarah :)

Youth leader escapes jail for dead possum prank

Just when you think you have seen it all ... wonder what church this dickhead goes to ?????



Youth leader escapes jail for dead possum prank
August 30, 2006 - 1:32PM

A church youth leader who dragged a dead possum behind his car has avoided a possible jail term for what a magistrate described as extraordinarily antisocial behaviour.

Daniel James Korocz, 22, of Warriewood in Sydney, was convicted in Manly Local Court today of offensive behaviour over the incident on June 24.

"In all the time I've been doing this work, I've never struck anything so extraordinary, so unexplained," Magistrate Andrew George said.

"Your behaviour is antisocial at an extraordinary level, particularly at your age," he told Korocz, who is studying at TAFE for a career in community welfare.

The court was told that Korocz and three younger boys he knew through church had talked about buying some rope to drag road kill behind his car.

The group bought a coil of rope and then drove to the Wakehurst Parkway at north Narrabeen, on Sydney's northern beaches.

One youth found a dead possum on the side of the road and he and Korocz tied the rope around its tail.

As his companion held the rope out of an open window, Korocz drove along the road and into Deep Creek Reserve, dragging the possum behind the vehicle.

"The accused has driven around the reserve for approximately three to five minutes with the possum still attached," a police statement of facts read.

"The possum was dragged for about 500 metres before detaching from the rope."

The incident took place about 2pm (AEST) on a Saturday afternoon and was witnessed by several members of the public.

"Police were contacted because witnesses were quite disturbed and offended by what they had seen," the police statement of facts said.

"They were unsure as to whether the animal was alive or dead."

The court heard that an RSPCA post-mortem found the possum was already dead before it was dragged behind the car.

Korocz realised he had "behaved like an idiot" but would never have hurt an animal, Mr George was told.

A psychologist who interviewed Korocz found his behaviour was not a precursor to more serious offending and that he did not pose a threat to society.

But Mr George said he was not comforted by the psychologist's report.

"I'm at a loss to understand what process of logic would make any reasoning person, whether a teenager or an adult, to think that it was somehow humorous ... to tie a dead animal to a car and then drive around with it in front of others," he said.

The magistrate had the power to impose a three-month jail term and said almost everyone in the courtroom, apart from Korocz's parents, probably thought some jail time would be appropriate.

However, Mr George said he did not think sending the young man to jail was the right response and instead sentenced him to 50 hours of community service.

Korocz did not comment outside the court.