Freedom of speech ????????

Freedom of speech is enshrined in the United Nations Universal Declaration of Human Rights and is granted formal recognition by the laws of most nations.

In the United States freedom of expression is protected by the First Amendment to the United States Constitution


It is under this headline that post about Barrys blog being taken down! I am probbaly talking out of turn but I just dont believe the bullshit that is going on with the guys the USA has sent to iraq or in Barrys case the contract company that looks after the police training ..

Now this is most likley none of my bussisness but it seems weird that a country that claims to be free is in actualy fact anything BUT !! now I liked barrys blog he was always carful to write about himself and not anything that was not in the news already he didnt give out anything that would be even slightly be seen as privete infomation more offten or not it was on himself and hes thoughts and had nothing to do with the iraq sutiation ..

How can bullshit like this keep going on before people wake up !!!! it seems almost everyone who had a blog in iraq has been forced to remove it .. What next the mail has pass through some goverment office .. phone calls are monitored .. what the hell is going on .. How on earth can you preach to be a free country .. or bring freedom to Iraq ?????

Freeway Blogger

A good friend emailed me this site today after I stoped laughing I thought I should post it here for you all to take a look at !!! I am thinking of doing something like this myself If I do I will be sure to post the photos ....


FREEWAY BLOGGER

Cough Cough

Those of you who have been up to my place or at least know where I live will know that the past week has seen my little corner of the world once again covered in smoke and flames from the bush fires, They have been burning for about a week now and still very nasty ... This is so way early for bush fires as you know we get our share here but normally much latter in the summer not at the start it just shows how dry every thing is .... Yes I did say it snowed here about 6 weeks ago the weather is just so fucked up this year ......

My little place is safe for the most part as I have my own water system and can drain my pool if need to be provide a full spray of water over my house it was installed by the last owner and works a treat well not that a fire has come through here but i do test it at least twice a year ..




Todays News A 17-strong Remote Area Firefighting Team was deployed by helicopter this morning ahead of the fire front, currently burning in the valley system near the mountain town of Faulconbridge.

While the RAFT team represents the first attack on the blaze, the bulk of the 500 firefighters working in the region are concentrating on the last line of defence – the so-called “Black Line” of back-burning in front of towns along the Great Western Highway.

Anyway .... lots of fun and games
take care everyone
love and light
Sarah

Beach party FLOP

Well I must be getting old or aleast my friends are getting old ... too old for a good beach party it seems .. oh well I had about 20 or so friends there and we had a great time even if we were down on numbers I was expecting about 50 peeps oh well ... prolly my poor planing

anyway It seems everyone is going away or on some trip or just not bloging at the moment .. you all have a great life giggles ...

christmas is coming up fast as with only 5 weeks or so to go ... wow where did all this year go ? seems like only yesterday we were starting a new year and now we are about to start another one ... I wonder what new years promises will come out of blog ville this year .. has anyone even thought about it yet ... I bet Andy is going to tell us all he will blog everyday again .. (ha ha )

I actually bought a 07 calander thingo the other day I dont know what is more scarry the fact that I bought it or the fact i actually had some stuff to put in it... I am planing to spend some time in NZ again hopfully about a mth or so .. I would love to be there now and see the ice berg that is 100 mts tall and not all that far off the coast ... gee if you needed a sign about global warming there it is ...

Anyway I am looking fwd to seeing Borat soon everyone says its funny as hell and I do love Ali G so when I get the chance I will be there ..

Take care little ones
Sarah
love and light
OH and almost forgot I have started hitting training hard again in the hope of maybe doing some races next year .. I got board I guess

see ya
xoxoxoxox

White Ribbon Day 25th Nov

I Know what your thinking another day another bloody ribbon it seems theses days that there is a ribbon to wear on most days of the year for some thing or another if its not AIDS or cancer then its something more close to home like we are wearing a purple ribbon cause little Timmy can not find is dog. Anyway this is one I would like you to all get behind cause its something that has touched my life in such a huge way but we will get to that ..

What is White Ribbon Day ?
White Ribbon Day was created by a handful of Canadian men in 1991 on the second anniversary of one man's massacre of 14 women in Montreal. They began the White Ribbon Campaign to urge men to speak out against violence against women.

In 1999, the United Nations General Assembly declared November 25 the International Day for the Elimination of Violence Against Women (IDEVAW) and the White Ribbon has become the symbol for the day.

What Does Wearing A White Ribbon Mean?
Wearing a White Ribbon is not a badge of purity or a badge of perfection. It does not mean that the wearer has perfect relationships. It does not mean that this man has never been violent in the past. It does not mean that this man has all the answers. It simply means that this man believes that violence towards women is unacceptable
In 2004, more than 200,000 White Ribbons, and in 2005 250,000, were worn by men and women across Australia in their workplaces - all Australian police forces, many national and local sporting organisations, the media, politics, the Australian Defence Force, and in capital cities, rural towns and regional centres.

So Why This Day Why am I Talking about this one?
I always think twice or three times about posting my personal stuff on my blog cause it never seems to be a wise thing to do but here goes I guess most of you kinda know about my past anyway so the short and condenced version.
First I have to say this this is like a Life time ago (well 6 years and a bit now)As most of you know I was married YEA! to the best guy in the world well so I thought We has the best wedding it was so kewl I rember that 2 of my friends from France came all the way to suprise me and that my dress was like 2000 worth and so nice, We actually spent more money on hire cars than I did on my first car as we had 4 vintage black Jags anyway it was such a great day (not that my mother came but thats another story) anyway before I get lost in all the girly shit about how nice it was and who came etc etc. thats not what I am talking about See Noah (G_d bless him!) had quite a few problems the major one was his anger and his controling ways now I know I should have seen it coming and looking back I prolly did. But when you are young and stupid you think you can do anything and hey the church was there to help and suport were they not!

So it wouldnt have been long before I knew things were not quite right probaly started with my friends telling me that he treated them like shit behind my back (always trust your friends!!!) and asking me not to see some people I mean we were married and I guess I could do that right! so anyway by the end of the first year I Had distanced myself from most of my friends I had made some huges changes in my lifestyle just because of him now I know that in the first year we had some huge fights what was worrying was that the fights were getting worse from simple disagrements to full on shouting matches to pushes and by the end of the year you guessed it pushing shoving and the odd hit!!

Its actually alot harded for me to write this crap than it should be so if it seems that I am just touching the surface well you get that .. Its personal stuff after all and the net is so personal right! anyway I dont know how it happaned I dont know what went wrong and I dont know how I got so so very stupid but by the end of the second year I had become what I hate!.. I had lost myself I was in a relationship with a monster that got worse and worse the violence got more often and more severe By the end of that year I was more a punching bag than a wife ( dont know how I dont know why) but I do know that I was getting hit atleast once a week that my life was not mine and I have NO idea why I stayed or why I let this happan or why I kept going back for more!! I guess some lessions you just dont learn!

It all came to a head when I fell pregnant after we had been married for about 2.5 years. Now a baby is going to fix everything isnt it! I mean everyone loves babys and this was going to be our start to a family everything was going to be so good I told a church friend first who has some idea of what was going on. Most didnt!.. I was so scarred to tell Noah about it I kept it to myself for a few weeks fearing an argument. I use to live with such fear. Anyway when I did telll him all hell broke lose big time and to cut along story short I got the beating of my life at aobut 3 am I woke up in a pool of my own blood and everything hurting i couldnt breath I couldnt walk and my arms wouldnt do what I wanted I so dont know how I got to the phone and got an ambulance I looked like I had been run over with a Truck twice... I forget most of what happaned for the next few days I was in Hospitial and thats all I really know. Needless to say I lost the baby even if it was only early days you still feel the loss. Noah was no where to be seen and My only true friend in the whole world was there by my side.

This was like the end and the start of my life (I know I am skipping stuff) anyway Noah was tracked down by some of my old friends from surfing days and from what I hear they fucked him up good not that I wanted that to happan I just wanted him gone and for the most part I never saw him again untill late last year but more on that another time .. ( I do love him) ... From then on I took alot of time getting to know me getting to know what I wanted to do .. getting to know how to live the life I wanted with the people I want to ... Anyone who knows me now would tell you just how strong I am how balanced I am. How at peace I am ....

So getting back to WHITE RIBBON day its a big one its something worth your support its not going to cost you anything. So get behind it for everyone whos still living in fear whos hiding from people who say they love them for you mother your sister you ex girlfriends you children your friends ... just stand up!!!! ...

Australian research has established that:

more than 1 million women have experienced violence during a relationship with 60% reporting that they lived in fear during the relationship;

23% of women in a current relationship, or who had been in a relationship, experienced physical and/or sexual violence from a partner;

20% of women who experienced violence were pregnant when violence first occurred;
67.6% of women who experienced violence said their children had witnessed the violence (Women's Safety Australia, ABS 1996);

the average direct cost of services for each victim of domestic violence was just over $51,000 per year in 1988;

domestic violence generates enormous costs for the health sector and the legal sector (second only to traffic accidents in taking up police time) (Roberts 1988);
domestic violence significantly disrupts employment and business productivity with direct and indirect costs to business estimated at $1.5 billion annually (Henderson 2000);

there are significant costs in income and other support for women who are unable to obtain or keep a job in the wake of leaving a violent relationship.

Wow did you really read all the way down to here ... Well done !!! lol

Anyway I so hate talking about the past thats why I skipped along and tryed not to get into do much depth with it all .. the main thing is its just so long ago and so much not who I am today .....

I guess thats all I Have for ya today
play safe
love and light
Sarah
XOXOXXOXOXOXXOO!

If you want more info on white ribbon day click here

The weekend and Schapelles Corbys book

Hi funky monkey people,

I have been reading Schapelle Corbys book "My Story" for those who dont know Schapelle Leigh Corby, a 28 year old Australian arrested on October 8, 2004 for allegedly transporting 4.1 kg of marijuana from Australia to Bali, Indonesia. Customs officials at the Denpassar airport discovered the marijuana in her boogie board bag. Schapelle was sentenced 20 years imprisonment on May 27th 2005 in the Denpassar district court.

Despite legal appeals calling for her release, Schapelle Corby remains interned in Kerobokan Prison [Bali]. She steadfastly maintains her innocence!

She my be guilty or inocent I guess it depends on who you believe and alike.. I dont know or claim to know if she did it or not but I do think that its kinda harsh the term and prison that she now finds herself in I do feel that she should be able to serve her time here in Australia with decent treatment but if you like there are many sites like free schapelleand News storys If you would like to know more

Anyway back to the book its not the best or most intersting thing I have ever read but hey its worth a look when you have nothing to do. Perhaps more sutited to a background new artical about her than a 35 dollar read I found it worthwhile but not something I would buy again ..

So this weekend I completed my first course in basic auslan sign language and I feel like I took to it like a duck to water its much easyer than it looks and with some help I should be able to pick it up in a very short time this makes one more language to my colection which is growing all the time ..

I am throwing a huge beach party for my birthday on friday night anyone in the Illawarra area its going to be at coalcliff (above) get intouch or just turn up we will have a fire and DJ so come on down dont bring anything just tell me who you are lol ... Oh and yes its safe we have that covered ...!!!

Thats all I really have for ya today
take care people
love and light
Sarah ...XOXOXOXOX

Oh and yes it was my birthday

Hey butt monkeys !!!!

Yes it was my birthday on Tuesday so I am now and old duck and will learn to knit and wear a Hat and lawn bowl and all that shit .... ( actually have a sore back today) welcome to my pity party lol ...

So to all the friends that called me and emailed me ... I LOVE you so very much .. to the people who didnt ...... I LOVE you too !!!!

I am doing my sign language course (auslan) this weekend and a first aid course next week .. wow all this learning stuff .. My old brain can not hack it ...Dont know why but hey something to do .. you know when you get old you have to keep your mind active or you lose it ... if i didnt loose it already

So Christmas is coming that means santa for all you christian people and just a day off for all you other people .. I must say there are parts of christmas I like and parts I hate but thats a whole new post I guess

Well once again I find myself lost for words but well you get that .....
Take care friends
love and light
Miss Sarah

The Vandals - birthday song

It's my brithday and I'll do what I want to
Fuck you it's my birthday
Special holiday only for me
So do what I say
I'ts my party and I can cry if I want to
Fuck you, it's not your birthday
So do what I say ok
For 24 hours your wishing me well
364 days I'm in hell
oh well
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me

Leave me alone on my birthday
I'm gonna dance 10 times on my birthday
No tip, it's my birthday so do what I say

Thanks mom didn't have an abortion,
Or my birthday wouldn't be today
But I guess it's my good fortune
My birthday's today ok
For 24 hours your wishing me well
364 days I'm in hell, oh well
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me

(spank me, spank me, spank me, spank me, spank me, spank me)

Oh well, happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to--
Can't believe you forgot my birthday
It's my birthday and you're wreckin it
No it's just like any other day ya didn't do what I say
How could you forget my birthday
That's really immature
F*ck you, for forgettin' my birthday
Ya didn't do what I say today
24 hours of no wishin well
Now 365 days I'm in hell oh well
Happy Birthday to me
Happy happy birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me

Shopperholic Vs Ebay

Every now and then I find myself hunting around ebay and in doing so buying stuff that I dont really need or want but hey its cheap and there is something about winning and auction of any anything that is deep in my phyci and something I must do ...

Anyway this weekend saw me doing it again this time i bought something I not only dont know how to use and even if I did I need to have a licence to use it which would involve a course ... go figure how silly is that ... ok its almost as silly as me buying that 20 foot boat last year .. but hey it was a bargain ... and i did make money when i re sold it ...

Oh also I went to see "SAW 3" yesterday it rocked much better than SAW2 the only problem was asking for the tickets ... "Can I have 2 tickets to see saw theree please" "was that two to see saw three" "umm yes two to see saw three please" lol

If it was at two oclock I would have gone mad .. ok madder ...

love and light everyone
Sarah

Been a little while ... here is the highlights

Well Havnt posted for a little while and havnt said anything personal at all for a bit so I guess I should apoligise for it but really just havnt felt like writting anything at all and that is what I have done lol

So really not much to tell ... Life is just laid back and crusie at the moment.. No partys ... still single ... no clubing ... no holidays ... nothing ... how boring ...

The weather is still all messed up ... its hot and cold and all over the place ... I was almost thinking of going swiming down the river the other day only to wake up to a bitter cold day .. it even snowed at Mt hotham and in Tassie .. which is so weird concidering that like the week before It was total fire ban days ...

At last day light savings is here so that means nice arvos and great wine .... Something that become a lifestyle for me last summer ... If any of you are up my way anytime soon do get intouch .....

My body peircings are healing nicely but I wont post anymore photos ...

Oh I am also becoming a big fan ofJericho.. They seem to be showing it at the same time as the Usa which is great and better than having spoil it by watching it on the net before hand it looks like they will do this with the OC as well

One thing spring and summer are good for is festivals ... anyone got any plans for any of them ??????

I think I will hit Confest again this summer If anyone wants to join me .. email me ... would be great to show off some hippy culture to some of ya .... you would love it .....

Anyway thats my boring post about my boring life ... lol ...

I will post soon when i am not as tired and have more to say ...
untill then take care my people
Sarah ...xoxoxoxo

PROOF THERE IS A G_D AND SHE LOVES AUSTRALIA

US govt denies it's banned Vegemite


Australians travelling to the US can breathe easy. So can the 100,000 or so Australian expatriates living in America.

The US government dismissed media reports it had banned Vegemite.

"There is no ban on Vegemite," US Food and Drug Administration (FDA) spokesman Mike Herndon told AAP.

Media reports at the weekend claimed American border officials were confiscating Vegemite from Australians as they entered the US.

The FDA, charged with policing America's food supply, has not issued an "import alert" to border officials to halt the import of Vegemite.

Herndon said the FDA was surprised by the media reports.

The controversy centres on folate, an ingredient in Vegemite.

Under US regulations, folate can be added only to breads and cereals.

"One of the Vitamin B components (in Vegemite) is folate," Herndon explained.

"In and of itself, it's not a violation. If they're adding folate to it, boosting it up, technically it would be a violation.

"But the FDA has not targeted it and I don't think we intend to target Vegemite simply because of that."

Joanna Scott, spokesperson for Vegemite's maker, Kraft, reportedly has said, "The Food and Drug Administration doesn't allow the import of Vegemite simply because the recipe does have the addition of folic acid".

But Herndon said, "Nobody at the FDA has told them (Kraft) there is a ban".

To eradicate any grey areas or potential regulation breaches, Herndon said, Kraft could petition the FDA, something other food manufacturers have done.

While many Aussies living in the US rely on visiting Australian relatives and friends to bring them a jar or two of Vegemite from Australia, the product is available in some US supermarkets.

The price slapped on Vegemite, however, is tough to swallow.

A tiny, four ounce jar of Vegemite sells for around $US4.80 ($A6.33) in US supermarkets.

OK looks like someone stuffed something up .. ... maybe me for taking notice of a FOX owned media ... shame on me ... I will take back some of the bad things i said about the USA in the last 2 days ....

anyway good news

Your not taking my vegemite .... I'll fight ya for it

Just when you think the frickin US of A has done enough harm in the world ... news comes in that they have baned vegemite !!!!!! omgosh ... they are even searching cars and bags on Aussies for the stuff .... why .. cause the land of the free people is not so free .. but you already knew that ... vegemite is great for you not to mention it tastes fantastic .... what is the world coming to .. as a friend of mine said quote " why do we help them fight their shitty wars when they are searching us for spreads" totally agree ...



The bizarre crackdown was prompted because Vegemite contains folate, which in the US can be added only to breads and cereals.
Expatriates say that enforcement of the ban has been stepped up recently and is ruining lifelong traditions of having Vegemite on toast for breakfast.

Former Geelong man Daniel Fogarty, who now lives in Calgary, Canada, said he was stunned when searched while crossing the US border recently.

"The border guard asked us if we were carrying any Vegemite," Mr Fogarty said.

"I was flabbergasted." Paul Watkins, who owns a store called About Australia in San Antonio, Texas, said he had been forced to stop importing Vegemite six months ago.

"We have completely stopped bringing it in," he said.

"(US authorities) have made a stance and there is nothing that can be done about it."

Another reasion I will never go to the usa ... lets make that number 1001 wankers lol

Jess and Nic Tie the knot

Greetings shiny happy people ....

Spent Last Saturday at the wedding of two of my dear friends Jess and Nic I have been to heaps of weddings but this was my first Gay one and I must say it was the best thing i have seen in a long time everything was so so nice and personal the ceromeny was to die for with with music and poems that reflected the lifes of the girls so well ...

It was a small service and perhaps that added to the intmicy of it all but as Nic said her vowels that she had written herself there was not a dry eye in the house CONGRATS so very much !!!!

Got me wondering though if gay weddings are illeagl then were the cops about to bust in and drag everyone off to prision or something ????

Anyway not much else to say at the moment only that I am having fun and looking at a few ideas for my birthday which is not all that far away ... one idea is to lock myself in my room and cry about how old I am getting ... lol .. perhaps I can pass on that one ..

Take care friends

love and light sarah

Free Hugzs

I was feeling alittle blue today ... and a little confused about if I should keep blogging or just kill the blog ... to be honest I guess I have been blogging alittle close to heart about some events of late and perhaps people dont get that my life is diffrent to how they chose to live theirs ... well thats just me ... you can live with it or go away ... just dont judge me for it ok ... I hate people that judge me .. perhaps its just going back to high school where i never fitted in with any groups or clicks that were going around .. I lived with it then and I can live with it now ... anyway I watched the free hugs you tube clip again and felt I should just post it .. if you are one of the few people on the planet that has not seen it yet please watch it ..

So anyway friends .. my the God of your choise bless you and keep you from the evil of this world ....

take care Sarah

Nipple Piercing

OK today I decided to get my left nipple pierced ... why ??? I can almost hear you asking well I have wanted it done for awhile but couldnt do it while I was still fighting .. can you imagine it getting ripped out OUCH plus 1000 !!! so anyway I rang a friend who runs a Pierce shop and thought I would just book in for like a week away giving me time to back out of it if i needed to .. anyway she said she could do it in about an hour if i could get myself down there so i did and here is the result OUCH! well it hurt like a bitch but really not all that bad I mean I didnt even cry such a big girl I am ... Its kinda bleeding abit at the moment and looks kinda yuck the purple ink you can see is where she drew on me to get it in the right place .... as you can see i got a whats called a large hole not the little shitty ones some chics get !!!

Anyway I like it and am thinking about getting the other one done next week !! I can not believe I just said that but I think it would look better if they were both done dont you ??? can not go around being unbalanced can I ? for now I will keep the bar thing untill it heals abit and then maybe go for a ring thing... any ideas ???

Take care sweet friends
Sarah
xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo

wednessday is fridays bitch

Hi everyone ... been a quite week back home for me so far ... not much going on at all .. after the last few weekends Maybe its what i need!!!! (you think) well getting back home after 2 weeks away is nice not that anything has changed but I love my own bed !!!!

Not much news on the relationship frount either I went out last friday and met some nice people I got a number from a cute girl only to find she missed out a digit and that ment i had to find out from a friend of a friend yesterday cause I told her I would call her gotta hate that ..

I run into John he was also out at the same club I was he said hi and we had a quick kiss but nothing more.. I did keep an eye on what he was doing but felt silly when I found myself doing it .. I am fine with whatever we are but really I do want more and if i spend to much time with him I know i will just want him so I am trying to give myself some space and let him come to me when he is ready !!!!

So with the weekend coming up fast i dont know what i am doing I have plans to do a big climb on sunday if the weather stays good fingers crossed I also think I will head out on friday night once again I feel I might be indanger of falling into something I left behind along time ago ... that being the whole club thing .. for the moment i am enjoying going out for a dance and a drink ... perhaps that is as far as this road will lead me this time ... i know i am alot smarter than what i use to be ... well i hope so ... there was alot of lessions along the way ...

Take care friends
Sarah
mwa mwa

photos from my cell phone in Melbourne

The view from my room at Crown Towers

My Weekend romp !!!!

Posting from Melbourne Vic ... Its so nice here sitting in the food capatial of Australia and at quote "One of australias premier hotels"

Anyway I find myself reporting on yet another weekend of fun, drinking, clubing, and rooting around ..lol

So Friday I went and saw KENNYFrom the biggest festival to the smallest church social, Kenny Smyth delivers porta-loos to them all... gotta say I laughed my arse off at this one .. if you like aussie movies you will love this one try to get to see it if you can .. some fave quotes "there is a smell in here that will out last religin " and " here is another example of a two inch arse hole and out one inch pluming"

Anyway saturday night I caught up with John again .. he came to see me while I was catching up with some other friends over some Margiaritas anyway after that we went to see a band for a while and ended up at a night club in central sydney where i jumped the line and walked straight in .. gotta love having frinds in high places or should that be low places .. lol ....

Anyway cutting along story short we ended up back at his place at 5 30 am .. totaly tired and worn out from hours and hours on the dance floor I swear its been so long seice I have danced all night like that so anyway went to bed too tired to fuck (you know that tired drunk messy fucking) so we both fell asleep I kinda heard him get up about 10 am but I was still sleeping at 1 pm he came in with a hot coffee and b/fast. (what a nice guy) I ate then we went out for a smoke it was stormy as there at the time so we headed back to bed to keep warm we talked and talked and smoked and talked .. well you get the idea..

I got to ask the big question which is "what are we and were are we going?" he said and I quote "Its not just a sex thing" but " we are just getting to know each other and I dont want a relationship at the moment"
I explained that while I can live with that I am looking for more and thats were I am at. So for the time I am ok with what we have going on and will keep an eye out for Mr or Miss right to come along and hope that somewhere down the line things might get to where I want them with us who knows what the future holds ... He drove me home at 7 pm sunday after spending 24 hours with me ... YEA for that

I am happy and enjoying my life all the same
anyway as my eyes struggle to stay open i will leave this post
take care everyone and thanks for the friends who email me
love and light
Sarah
PS. I can now upload photos so look for that soon
see ya

Yet again another bites the dust

I have been stewing on this post for about a week now and after getting permision from those involved (with name changes) I can finaly get it out ...

So Lets start at the begining when I use to go to church one of my good friends (yes i have friends) was just about to get married to a young upcoming preacher which was fantastic only for the fact that she was young and had not known the guy all that long but they seemed happy and i was happy for them at the time .. i guess looking back I did feel they were young and had only been going out for about 6 mths before hand but what did I know ..

anyway jumping fwd to a phone call I got a few weeks back from her .. she told me that they were spliting up and she needed help so anyway I helped her out by flying her to my place at Echo Point and giving her some of what she needed being space and cash and all the suport i could .. It was then she told me about all the pressure the church had put opon her at the time to get married and latter to stay married even though she was not happy and has not been for along time .. the echos of what happaned to me were very plan to me see my story and made feel some pain yet again

Now my thoughts are plain .. the church I feel really has it wrong here regarding relationships between boys and girls, men and women, I feel that relationship should be left alone for people to work out and not used as a tool for the church to get involved and pressure people into the whole marriage thing .. (do i sound like a scorned woman) I hope not I am just saying that i feel the motives behind their thinking are more concerned about kids having sex than about what is best for the couple involved !!!!

If all sin is equal then sex is no more sinful than lying about something or having thoughts about someone elses wife or hubby something i am sure we have all done at one time or another (perhaps its just me) but really guys sex is not the big deal that some preachers make it out to be .... One preacher that I actually admire for the most part John King even went so far to say that when a man breaks a girls hyman on there weding night that blood forms a blood covernet between the two (miss spelt) I dont know if thats true or not but I gotta say Its a hard perfect world he is living in if he thinks that is the case ...

I guess in what i am trying to say is SHAME on the church that pressures young people to get married SHAME on the church that trys to control the interaction between the sexes and SHAME on the church that dosnt act as Christ did ...

I believe that while the church persists in this manner than they should expect what they now have and that is a divorice rate the same as the world around them .. but I would also add that included in that 50% of church relationships failing they should also include that normally one or both partys fall away from the church !!!! what is wrong with these people ????

anyway had do get that one off my chest ..

love and light to you all
especialy all my married and Church loving friends
peace and hugz to you
Sarah xoxoxoxox

P.S blogger will not let me upload photos .. that sux !!! bloger beta can kiss my skinny white arse !

Daydreaming again

So Tuesday has been the hotest day in like ever and the hotest September in years i think we hit 30 C or close enough .. dam we are in for a long hot summer thats for sure its only just the start of spring !!!!!

I have been thinking and dreaming alot in the last two days still playing"groove coverage" alot .. dam i love it but it means i bop along everywhere i go and it also means i drive faster with dance music blasting away ... but i think at the moment the best sound system i own is in my car .. gotta change that soon ...

dreams have been weird perhaps i watch to much tv lattly or someting but but then again who really knows if dreams mean anything or just random thoughts ? perhaps flash backs .. I have also found myself drinking alot this week for no reasion and while I am still adicted to Quick Fucks its not a good thing to be doing full shots for those of you that dont know them they are
1 cl Bailey's® Irish cream
1 cl Kahlua® coffee liqueur
1 cl Midori® melon liqueur

giving you Alcohol (ABV): 22% (44 proof)
Thats gotta be bad for ya in large amounts .. but hey Never bothered me much !!!!

Anyway I guess not much to say and all ...

been thinking of late if its worth my blogging at all and trying to decide if i keep this up or not. any thoughts or coments ????

love and light to you all
Sarah
hugz ya all

weekend report (sorry its personal)

Gotta tell ya all about my weekend was so ... blow my mind ..

Saturday a new friend called lets call him John .. I met him at the speed dating i think i told ya about him .. we kissed abit on the dance floor

anyway as Mike has been fucking me about (not literaly) I decided to go out with John I went over to his place first .. He has like a night club in his lounge room .. full bar , lights . and a kick arse music system with millions of disks so anyway while he was getting ready I cranked up some old school dance music and poured a six (quick fucks) (my fave) anyway when he got ready we danced and danced in his lounge room and did shots


we danced to some of my faves .. groove coverage poision, nin cover etc etc old skool rave songs we kissed abit and i did a bit of a strip for him .. just a tease !!! was so much fun

anyway we went clubing after that and but that is where i got a phone call and sms from a friend in trouble .. so i had to leave the club and taxi it 30 mins to her place to take care of some guy that wouldnt leave .. just my luck .. but John was very understanding and we were going to catch up latter at 4 am i finaly got left my friend who was panic but ok .. anyway i couldnt raise John .. he was prolly out dancing and shit .. or drunk so anyway i went back to his place and was going to just sleep in his bed but thought better of it so i got my car i was sober at this time and jaket and went home

that would have been the end of the story execpt for a phone call on sunday arvo ..

john called and we talked about what happaned on saturday night .. etc anyway he said i should come over .. i said i was just about to take a nap as i was tired and not much company he said he was tired too and sugested we i should come over and nap together ... anyway i said one hour and i will be there

so anyway ... here is what happaned next ... he still hadnt had a shower so he was going to shower and said if i wanted to go to bed i could .. so i did ... anyway what followed was 2 ours of some of the best fucking ever ... and ever is along time
i think the words of nin closer some it up for ya without photos lol

You let me violate you.
You let me desecrate you.
You let me penetrate you.
You let me complicate you.

Help me; I broke apart my insides.
Help me; I've got no soul to sell.
Help me; the only thing that works for me
Help me get away from myself.

I want to fuck you like an animal!
I want to feel you from the inside!
I want to fuck you like an animal!
My whole existence is flawed.
You get me closer to God.

You can have my isolation.
You can have the hate that it brings.
You can have my absence of faith.
You can have my everything.

Help me; tear down my reason.
Help me; it's your sex I can smell.
Help me; you make me perfect.
Help me become somebody else.

I want to fuck you like an animal!
I want to feel you from the inside!
I want to fuck you like an animal!
My whole existence is flawed.
You get me closer to God.

Through every forest, above the trees.
Within my stomach, scraped off my knees.
I drink the honey inside your hive.
You are the reason I stay alive.


So today i am sore .. lol sore arms sore legs sore knees sore tounge sore abs giggles and its a good sore ...

So anyway i think i have a new fuck buddy .. well i am sure i will get a call back on that one ... but just filling time for mr right to come along ...

so tonight i will go to sleep tired but happy ...

take care friends
and play safe .. (not that I do )
see ya soon
sarah
hugz and kisses