Date Report.....

Well what can I say ... I went for a coffee at 6pm and I got home at 4 am ... dose that say enough.... Yes he was cute yes he was sweet yes he had great eyes and was nice to talk to .. and yes ok so I did kiss him....

End of Report!!

Ps. yes I am going to see him tommorow we are going for a drive out to the best little hidden away cafes that I know of ..

Love and light
Sarah

the Chaser

OK I love these guys .. they are more funny than a frog in a blender .. So I just had to post a couple of clips re the APEC bullshit that goes on around the place if you have time please watch them and tell me what you think




This one is from the news when they went all out and got in some trouble ... I almost wet myself at this one ...



Hoped you like them ....

Love and light Sarah hugz

internet dating .................,..

So maybe against my better judgment I took some advice from a sweet friend and thought I would give it a go ... omgosh .. what the hell am I doing .. well its been awhile so I thought I would explore the world of internet dating ... well I checked out some sites untill I found one I was ok with .. It looked less shady than the others and seemed genuinene .....

I got some help to write a profile for me that seemed to say too many nice things about me (hope I dont sound like I love myself tooo much) and filled out all the other questions It was kinda like ordering Takeaway in parts .. anyway .. I even added some nice photos and all ... made it look really nice .. well I think and hope .....

Anyway in the first hour I got messages from over 10 guys ... OMGOSH!!!!! Perhaps thats where all the guys are hiding these days ... anyway its all a bit overwellming to me .. I mean really ... GOSH !!! anyway ... I read and re read a bunch of profiles and yesterday I endded up chatting to one guy who actually seems quite nice ... I have another 4 I am emailing back and forth .. is that like cheating or something .. Lets just call them plan B, C , D and E for now lol ... on top of that I have more people trying to get intouch so I have had to get a bit picky and unless they really stand out I just say thanks I am flatterd. But I do try to get back to everyone who leaves a message I feel its rude not to .. execpt the one guy from NIGERRA who was looking for his 4th wife .. I didnt give him the time of day ..

So anyway to cut a long story short it sure has kept me busy and I am going out on a real date this Friday night with a sweet talking sweet looking younger man .. I dont normal go for younger ones but well worth a chat over Tea if nothing else I guess .. hopefully it will work well and I wont get bashed raped or murdered .. well thats the plan anyway ... wish me luck ...

OH and before you guys ask I am not telling you where it is cause .. I dont want to date any of you ... well maybe one of you but he dosnt comment all that much anymore .. and if you think its you.. Your most likley wrong .. sorry to say ....

Love and light
Sarah

I Have a Dream!!!! Do you ????

Ever had a dream a vision a quest a purpose??? ever had a goal a hope a wish a vision of what you want??? If you could would you do it? would you make it happan? what you spend? what would you do? what price would you pay? what cost would you bear? to make it happan to see the light to walk the ground to glimps what your mind sees? WELL???? would you suffer for your hope your place your view your dream of something more?? Would you sell your dream? put it in a box and hide it away.. bring it out when you are old and See what could have been????? IF ONLY ....... IF ONLY

Will you come with me to a far away place
Where no ones consumed by anger or hate
Where the trees and the grass can grow without end
Come on now, its not that hard to pretend
Where the people accept you for who you are
Dispite your disputes you can live arm and arm
Where the sun always shines, and the moon always glows
You have no enemies, rivals, or foes
Everybody is equal, no matter the profession
Where your views are your views, in whatever direction
Where the skies always blue, and the ocean is calm
No countries or lines, cuz we all get along
No war, or sick, or hungry, or poor
You can sleep through the night without locking your door
Religions religion, no need to fight
your god, is your god, just see through your sight
Where urban and rural and live side by side
Just be yourself, there’s no need to hide
Nothing is bad, and there’s never no trouble
Bet you like this place, and I hate to burst your bubble
Of this utopia I speak, it can never be
For you could be happy, but you wouldn’t be free

Just some thoughts going through my head today of all days

Love and light Sarah

Thank you

Hey Saz what are you doing next week ????

JJ : hey Saz what are you doing next week hunny??

Sarah : Not much spunk whys that?

JJ: Well just thought you might want to join us on the APEC protest

Sarah: dont know .... There is going to be enough peeps there aready right

JJ: well yea .. but not the same without you ...

Sarah: without me ... as if! I am getting to old for that shit!

JJ: come on babes it will be fun ... nothing major just makeing a stand. and GW is there I know you love the guy

Sarah : Narr I think I will give it a miss I mean ... Im more passive now ... ( sarah thinks back many years to getting billy clubed by the victoran police at a G12 protest)

JJ: well up to you missy .. anyway we should catch up sometime I hear your little funky tea shop is taking off these days ...

Sarah: for sure J I miss you baby ... your always welcome come for the weekend or something we will catch cocktail night at the local ...

JJ: (laughing histericaly) I still rember the last cocktail night we went to ...

Sarah (blushing) : ,,,, mmmmmm yep giggles ... nar not like that well perhaps something more civil then ...

JJ: perhaps anyway gotta run chat soon monkey

Sarah: sure sure be safe and call me soon ok

JJ: ok .. bye babe mwa mwa ..

So APEC have decided to bring there shit to Sydney why so ... because Sydney is a peaceful and happy place so the war mongers decide to come and camp in my back yard for a week at a cost of millions of dollars I might add.... the bastards !!!!

So what is APEC ???

The Asia-Pacific Economic Co-operation Group is an international body made up of 21 member countries including most nations with a border to the Pacific Ocean. The current members are: Australia, Brunei, Canada, Chile, China, Chinese Taipei, Hong Kong, Indonesia, Japan, Malaysia, Mexico, New Zealand, Papua New Guinea, Peru, Philippines, Russia, Singapore, South Korea, Thailand, USA, Vietnam.

How important is it?

On the world stage, it is of limited importance. The G8 summit and the World Economic Forum attract some serious firepower, not just from among heads of government of the richest nations on Earth but also from the bankers and business barons who pull the purse strings.

However, it is fairly rare for so many world leaders to be in the same place at the same time – so when they are, what they talk about and what they sign up to can be very important. It is even more rare for Australia to be a part of this type of summit, arguably making it more important for us than for others involved (George W. Bush is leaving early, for instance).

What will they be talking about?

Since the 2001 summit in Shanghai, which took place in the summit of the September 11 attacks in the US, international security and the fight against terrorism has had an increasingly prominent place at the talks. While the summit is technically supposed to be focused on economic issues, it is argued that terrorism has such an impact on a country’s economy that it should be discussed at APEC.

Trade issues such as free trade and/or lowering tariffs between APEC members will also be on the agenda. The Prime Minister also wants the 21 world leaders to discuss setting up a regional carbon trading scheme as part of the fight against global warming.

Why are people so angry about it?

The original driving force behind the opposition to APEC was the anti-globalisation movement, which believes that groups such as APEC and the trade deals they promote merely make rich countries richer and poor countries poorer.

But since it is fairly rare for so many world leaders to be together at once, it provides a platform for protest groups of all types to target the meeting as their chance to get their message across while the spotlight is on.

So what do the protesters want?

It varies. The anti-APEC protests are anti-globalisation, anti-war, anti-WorkChoices, anti-global warming and anti-poverty, to name just a few rallying points. The wide range of leaders coming to town also means there could be single-issue protesters – for instance someone opposed to China’s human rights record or Russia’s war in Chechnya.

So the protesters are united in their opposition to the high profile names attending, but what they actually want instead can differ.

What a boring little post this one is ... oh well I have to stand on my soap box sometimes ...

Take care people
love and light
Sarah ...

So life goes on ... well in some form or another lol

Anyway just got back from a totally sick performance (is that what the kids say) at the tea shop we had a guy play some great blues rootsy funky folky stuff he was fantastic he has actually kicked off what should become our spring series of having a music act one the last sunday of the mth its a way to say thanks to all the people who come to the shop a way to say welcome to some new faces and most of all its a way to pull some more money out of there pockets lol how captalistic of me narr we so dont even charge ...

Anyway I have had a few ups and downs this week but most of all I have been up except for some late lonly nights and bad dreams .. well you get that sometimes

I have been trying to add some writting lattley that is not all shit about what I do and where I have been and from time to time I will just post it at the bottom of a post I found this clip on You tube and its kinda my fave at he moment I am working on getting some of the moves down before I ask to be on part 2 lol no really well maybe not ... watch it if you have time



I fixed the speedo on my bike on Saturday .. they were going to charge me 500 for a new one so little miss fixit had a go totally thinking I would turn out to be little miss fuckit .... but no some spray oil and a wiggle here and there and wola all good ..

anyway try to guess where this I took this photo its along way from my place but so nice I am going back really soon and the riders around that area are soo nice flashing there lights and telling me where the cops were hiding cause I was only going like 100kph over the speed lmit lol

Love and light
Sarah
hugz

For Lloyd

One of the things I do is visit old people its part of a age concern group that I volunteered for a while back and involves an Hour a week (well sometimes more) where I would vist an old dude and just chat and keep them company. About a year back I started visiting Lloyd. He was the original grumpy old man and I would come and share some time with him sometimes just talking about what he was up to sometimes playing cards or sharing a cup of tea most of the time I would just listen to him talk about all kinds of stuff.. He always has alot to say about any topic from politics to life and was not shy in just saying it as it is .. (or at least how he sees things) Sometimes I didnt want to spend time with him Like I said he could be a grumpy old prick !!!! but I would tell him so and he would laugh and agree for the most part!!

We played cards one day and he got so pissed off when I beat him he called me a cheat and threw the cards in the air I told him to go fuck himself to which he laughed and we both ended up laughing at the fact I used the F word and how un becoming of a lady it was .. gee I guess he got to know me too ...

anyway early this week I got the news that Lloyd had passed away it. He died in hes sleep and without any pain so I guess that was a nice enough way to end his life .. They had a funeral for him today and It was nice to meet some of his friends (he didnt have many) some of his famialy and even a few guys that served in Veitnam with him (gee they came along way)

I guess deep down I knew this would happan some day but it hit me like a brick I could go on and talk about Lloyd for ages but I wont (I just dont feel like it) And He would not want me too anyway so I will only say Your God bless and keep you Lloyd you showed me many things taught me many lessions and I am truly better to have known you ... Thank you for everything ... LOVE AND LIGHT FOREVER (even if you couldnt understand why I said that lol ) Hugz SARAH


i felt heavy today.
the alarm woke me up on the floor
telling me to get ready for your visitation.

i didn't know what to wear,
so i wore what i always wear

mike came and picked me up
carried us to the funeral home.
everything felt heavy.

I went inside and saw many people crying.
I hugged all of the familiar faces
which I had not seen before.

many people were crying.
but i wasn't crying.
my emotions didn't want to show themselves.

i went into the chapel where many people were gathering.
i couldn't think when i saw your casket
from the back of the room.

so i sat for a short while.
then i went to the altar
and hugged your sister.

after i hugged your brother
i looked down at you in your casket.
you didn't look the same.

i wasn't crying like everyone else.
i couldn't figure out why,
for i had loved you too.

finally the man said it was time for the service to start.
so i sat again,
this time in the front pew.

i could see you perfectly.
you didn't look the same.
but i still wasn't crying.

the man told us about you.
he summed up your life in less than one hour,
but you were so much more than that.

after the service ended
i went to your casket again.
you were peaceful, but not the same.

suddenly things were blurry
and hot water was pouring
out of my eyes.


i pulled away and looked up at mike
and saw the tears in his eyes;
the first i had seen him cry.

i hugged others.
i felt heavy.
i was not myself.

as i was leaving
i stopped to hug jacob
and said i would see him monday.

everything was blurry by that time.
everything felt heavy
and i couldn't move.

on the drive home
the sky flashed with lightning
again and again

the clouds glowed with the same blue
that used to light your eyes,
the same eyes that lit the world.

those eyes that i'll never see again
for as long as i live
alive only in my memory.

i will see you again one day.

Is that spring I can smell ???

Well kids spring is awhile off yet but had some great weather the last few days and well I like to get my hopes up dont I ...

So what can I tell you ... Sunday I went on a Huge ride with some people from the local bike shop and It was great to get out in a group of about 15 riders they say when the weather picks up they get alot more so I am looking fwd to that we did about 300km and my butt was so sore I am not use to long rides but it will get better (I hope) I totaly forgot to take any photos and kinda kicked myself when I got back cause we went to some great areas and found a nice old school pub that kinda rocked even if I could only order a salad and that was kinda basic to say the least aparantly the dead animals were great from what I was told ... anyway made some new friends and had a laugh .. they ride first sunday of the mth and even do a couple of overnight trips during the year so that should be a blast..

I am at abit of a loss again as to where to take this blog .. I dont know if I should write about things that are inportant to me or just fill it with crap that goes on in my life or what .... any ideas????? I guess when I started I was going to write on my life and the events and people that effect it so thats what you are going to get ... I do think I need to put alittle more thought into it .. dont you think ... ??????

I have called off my plans to head to South East Asia for now . perhaps next year just never seems to be enough time .. ( Do I sound old or what ..) back in my day ... ha ha ah

Sicko comes out tommorow and I am hoping to see it sometimes I forget how lucky we are in Australia to have free (well almost free) Health care so that we look after everyone the way it should be I feel ...

And what kind of person would I be not got give you thisLINK ????!!!!!!!

Take care nice people (grumpy ones can piss off lol )

Love and light
Sarah


It's about 11.00 am in the coffee shop. I got bored of conversation a while ago. I've taken to watching. Oberving. Occasional rough grunts to show I'm alive, but aside from that, just watching...observing...him.
He's smoking. I know he's too broke to afford cigarettes. I know he bludged them. Chances are he didn't even know the person. He's a performer. He will charm until he gets what he want. Cigarettes. Love. Money. Today he has extracted a cup of coffee from me. This sits in front of him, half drunk. A cappuccino. Reasonable flavour. Not fantastic quality. But I know he's not a discriminating coffee drinker. As long as I'm paying, it all works.
I think his girlfriend is talking. Not sure what about...herself probably. Unlike previous girlfriends ths one is a teenager, as opposed to a teenager's body with a thirty year old soul. No...this one is definitely a teenager.
She's an ex-smoker. Playing with some of his used matches. Flicking them between her fingers, talking, but staring intently at his cigarette, watching his hand move back and forward from the table to his mouth.
My eyes follow hers to the hand. He has a very feminine way of holding his cigarette. Not like my mother. My mother holds her cigarette like it is something to be treasured. Like each puff will be her last. My mother holds her cigarette like an addict. He doesn't. He holds it like a fashion statment. Like pin-up girls in the forties and fifties. Like it is something to make one's self more attractive. Like he could quit at any time but now is just not convenient. He'd make you believe it too... if you gave him a window. He gently draws back, then allows whisps of smoke to curl out the side of his mouth and trail up into the air.
Cigarette smoke has always fascinated me. It has a funny way of curling itself round the air and strangling. The smoke suffocates the air before wafting over to my face, engulfing me in a smell I find oddly comforting. Marlboro smoke. I am immune to it.
Girl is still talking. He is still smoking. And me? I am still watching...observing...inhaling offcast Marlboro smoke and thinking...
When I looked at him I saw a little boy in big boy's clothing. That is all. He was smoking. He was cool. He was fine. And he was so out of his depth.

Honestly

Honestly I have been abit down the last few days As you guys know I live alone and are not normally lonley just alone but for some reasion I have been lonley the last few days apart from a great chat online with a distant friend I have really not spoken a word to anyone Sometimes this is not problem in fact most of the time its all good but for some reasion the last few days it has been ..

I was going for a nice long ride today but the weather was so dam cold I pulled out of it after a few kms cause it just was not fun I was warm enough with all my gear on but with overcast skys and snow in the air I thought the better of it prolly a good thing as there has been alot of car crashes in the area of late due to ice and dumb monkey people ... (thanks bbc for the monkey explations)

Spring will be coming soon and I for one am looking fwd to it i have had enough of winter it makes me fat .. So for the next 6 mths I am not going to eat anything lol well thats not true but I will be working on that beach body I love so much seems every year its harder to get too and harder to hold on too .. not that I should really care but I do

fricken bored !!!!

ok what a dull day I think today is like the 3rd day in a row and I have not spoken to anyone ... whats with that ... today I went riding in the rain it was way cool and most fun the sound of the rain splating on my helmet the wind rushing past my head and the bike reving its arse off was an intresting mix this was combined with the smells of fresh rain and open fires as I rode past homes ..

On Tour ......

Well Boys and Girls,Its been snowing up here FANTASTIC and I have been riding around like crazy and thought I would actually take some photos for you ... Been awhile and all
My Baby .... Gosh I love this bike ... mwa mwa and yes that is a L plate on the back I only just got my Ls and all

So anyway here are some more photos of the main street near here and my fave place and all ....

So how is everyone ???? My inbox has been very Quite So I guess you are all busy or something .... (gee I should get alife also giggles)

Anyway thought you might like a couple of clips from my fave TV show here in Australia The chasers war on everything ... enjoy ...

IM BACK !!!!!

Hey Kids
well back from the coast it was very nice I got to recharge my batterys etc ... nice and relaxing but not really much to tell I spent my time walking the beaches getting masarges and reading .. I found that most people were at the snow or something cause there was no one around at all which was just how I like it ...

I even went out Sea Kyaking one day we got to visit some of the small beaches and coves that most people dont get to visit and you can not get to without a boat it was geat even if my arms and ass hurt like a bitch when we got back well we did paddle for 8 hours ouch ....

I picked up my bike yesterday and its so great I rode all day and again this morning got to say I LOVE it even if its cold and I lost feeling in my fingers for a while .. I will post some pics when the weather inproves and I clean her up ... Oh she needs a name .. any ideas ???? she is silver and grey and black if that helps anyone ...

Is it just me or is everyone over winter I gotta say I have had enough ... but I guess it wont be long till I complain about summer being so hot so you can not please everyone .... ha ha

My New Bike ...YEA!!!!!!

Hey kids sorry for the slack posting I will try but I am heading away in a couple of days so might not make a post for a week or two .... I will try to find a net cafe somewhere .. I am heading down the coast to a holiday home I have rented for a couple of weeks I am hoping to just chill out and catch my breath from what has been a fast paced year so far ... so look for some holiday snaps soon ..

On another note I just payed for my new bike its not the one I was going to get its a Suzuki Across GSX 250F
How cute is it ???!!!!!!!! omgosh I am totaly inlove with it ... weird hey but as they say its more of a partnership riding a bike than driving a care ... well I pick it up in a couple of weeks when I get back so look out .... maybe I will have to visit all my net friends just cause I need a reasion to go somewhere .. like I need a reasion ....

Apart from that nothing much is going on ..... sad all the same .. oh I almost forgot you have prolly seen this email going around but I thought I would post it anyway ... as you know I can not spell for shit and english I recon sucks .. this email sums up how I feel ....

Reasons why English is so hard to learn...

1) The bandage was wound around the wound.
2) The farm was used to produce produce.
3) The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.
4) We must polish the Polish furniture.
5) He could lead if he would get the lead out.
6) The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert.
7) Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time
to present the present.
8) A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.
9) When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.
10) I did not object to the object.
11) The insurance was invalid for the invalid.
12) There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.
13) They were too close to the door to close it.
14) The buck does funny things when the does are present.
15) A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.
16) To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.
17) The wind was too strong to wind the sail.
18) After a number of injections my jaw got number.
19) Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.
20) I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.
21) How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

There is no egg in an eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple
nor pine in pineapple. Sweetmeats are candies, while sweetbreads,
which aren't sweet, are meat. And if we explore its paradoxes, we
find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a
guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig. You park in the
driveway but you drive on the parkway. You ship by truck and send
cargo by ship. How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same,
while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your
house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by
filling it out and in which an alarm goes off by going on. When
the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they
are invisible.
And finally, how about when you want to shut down your computer
you have to hit 'START!!

Love and light my little friends ...
much hugz
Sarah mwa mwa

8 Things about me ...oks

[edit sorry dave!!!!!!]





Dave taged me for 8 things post well I guess that means I will tell you all 8 more things about me but I think you already know all that is worth knowing ....... So using Dans post as a guide here I go ...

1, I am an only child but I do have a young half brother but I think I have only met him once maybe twice ... I left home at 14 and haven't looked back I also have never met my Dad but have no plans to track him down I mean If I am not worth his time then he is not worth mine ...

2, I finished high school I hold an arts degree and a marketing degree, They are somewhere in a box which shows how much value I place on them actually I was going to burn my arts degree as an artistic statement but couldn't find it at the time ... ha ha ...

3,I am 29 (ouch) I have lived in Sydney, Melbourne, Albury/ wodonga, Paris, Rouen, and that's about it ... I have stayed at other places but not for more than a couple of Mths so they don't count.

4, Lets see jobs lol .... well I was a photographer for a marketing company for a few years, I own a Tea shop and sometimes work as a barista there, I have also made money doing some crap modeling for art studies while in France and I have also done some close protection work in the last few years but the jobs are few and far between (Prolly a good thing)

5,mmmmm am I a christian ??? who knows... I was once but kinda fell out with the powers that be and never really been back .. I like to think I am spiritual and open to many beliefs my own belief would prolly fall somewhere in between them all .... ( not really an answer is it)

6,Music well I like it all I have a huge collection of mp3/cds whatever you kids call them these days .. If you walk into my home you may find blues and roots playing you might find clasical or hardcore punk!!!!! I love house and Teckno... but never like country cause that stuff is shit!!!

7,I am quite and kind but I guess if you said tom boy or something like that it would best decribe me .. I do alot of outdoor stuff and dont mind getting my hands dirty

8,All time dream job .. ha ha I havnt worked like a real job in about 5 years and never will have to work again if i continue to play my cards right I guess you could say I retired at 25 and now the life I want .... I am not going to explain it too much on here but anything is posiable if you want it .....

So there you go 8 things some of you knew about me and some of you didnt ...

PS. Dave are you going to visit me or what !!!!! I did this post just for you hunny

Love and light
Sarah xoxoxox

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The bikie within ........

Well not to much going on in my life the only news I have is I am buying another motorbike .... yes another one ... I have a small dirt bike but of late I have been looking at getting a road bike .. Just a small one but perhaps something bigger in a couple of years if I live that long .. being fairly light a big bike would kill me in next to no time without the right training and experance and from what I know its a huge difrence from riding my dirt bike to riding a road bike so better to be safe than sorry ...

I have been shopping around and am going to buy the a new GPX 250 sold in the USA as the NINJI 250 .. anyway I will post some pix when I have it and show you all ... I am going to wait till next financal year so more time to wait and think I guess .. here is a photo in the mean time ..

MY HOME

ok ok ok I am posting I am .... lol ... let me sleep!!!!

So anyway I am going to share with you all some of the area around my little house and why I love it here sooooo ...... first I live between the towns of Leura and Katoomba

Click on it too enlarge or get better glasses for those of you that dont know thats about 100Km West of sydney

I guess the best way if for me to show you some of the sites around here and to spite my better judgment I will add some you tube vids to take alook at I know peeps hate the long loads so I will take no offence if you dont watch them ... hell I didnt take them ... you can even CLICK HERE to see the offical tourist infomation vid if you like ... its a bit tacky but what the hell ... you will get the idea ..

Actually I have spent alot of time today trying to find something on you tube to show you all ... and apart from shit there is not much ... I dont want to wast your time so perhaps I should take my cam out for a day .... maybe .... I am soo lazy sometimes .. Here is the better ones ... the first is from YHA







Take care friends
love and light
Sarah xoxoxo

The weekend is over and Its over

Hey space kids, well the weekend is over and its also over with Rob it was kinda a joint desion even if I made it .. you see things were going ok but just ok and I want more ... I was not in love with him and he was not in love with me so no heart break if anything a slight weight off my shoulders to be honest... Its a shame but I am sure there is more out there for me .. so Its back to seeing what the future brings???????

So what other news ... well sorry to say not much ... Its getting cold and dark real early and I am feeling like hiding away for the winter its great to see some rain and all I just forgot what its like when it gets dark so early and so late ... feels like 10 pm at 6 pm but you get that no matter where you are I guess .....

OH and another thing I shaved my head again its kinda funky and mean looking why I dont know but needed the change and didnt have a tattoo in mind lol .... well I do but I am not ready to start on that one yet ... so for the next while I will next to no hair but hey it will grow back real soon so nothing to worry about ... I hope ... lol

Take care friends
love and light
Sarah
hugz and kisses

Mothers Day Varekai

Well after a sleepless night mothers day came about now as you know I havent seen or heard from my mum in years!!! untill a few weeks back when she got intouch with me and then we talked on the phone a few times in the last mth she lives in Melbourne now and anyway we decided to meet up ... I also was going to Melbourne to see Cirque du soleil so I thought I would combine the two and make a day of it taking my mother to see Cirque at the same time at least we would have something to do rather than dificult conversation and we would be in a public place so less chance of Me comiting murder with so many people around (Note I only said less lol)

Anyway we met for lunch at Southbank which was ok only she turned up totaly under dressed I am not complaining only that if she could have made some effort what the hell I can get over it right .. anyway we didnt talk much and when we did it was mostly shit anyway I didnt want to tell her anything she could use against me at some latter date and so I answered most of her questions quite vauge She told me alot of what she was doing and I was polite about asking all the right questions about how she is etc .... for the most part I guess It was positive but not something we will do anytime soon So anyway we ate I payed (nothing new there) then walked down to see Varekai by cirque du soleil,

It was Fantastic They sure know how to put on a show!!!! I totaly recomend it to everyone given the chance!!!!! trully I was so impressed by the performance the costumes the lighting everything was great you just didnt know where to look I totally wish I had run away to join them at a young age !!!!!

So anyway I guess overall it was a nice day I talked to my mum first time in years and we didnt argue perhaps there is hope yet ... but dont hold your breath!!!!.. I know I know life is too short and I am a forgiving soul But not forgeting so lets just see as time moves on!!!! Best of all I got to go to the Cirque with my mum something I never did as a kid ... and lets face it I am still a child after all ...

Love and light
Friends
Sarah xoxoxox

How to find words

Today I feel cranky I don't want to do anything I don't want to see anyone I just want to sit and stare mindless into the TV or something of that nature ... Robbie is coming over in about 30 mins and I don't want to see him .. Perhaps I will ask to go see a movie so I don't have to talk to him... That doesn't sound good dose it?

I have just got back in town after a few weeks on the road and I want to get back on the road ...

I think I will end it with Rob soon he isn't the one he never is going to be the one so why do I waste my time with him????

Anyway on a brighter note I am seeing alot of bloggers get annoyed and pissed off and confused by blogging and peoples comments ... Its always stunned me as to why I blog at all I mean I am normally a fairly personal person I still haven't worked out why I would write anything on here stuff that I don't say to my friends ... OH I remember I don't have friends lol ...

Narrr Perhaps I will have to make my next post very personal and on my inner most thoughts and fears ... now that's a scary thought should I tell you about the voices and the monsters that visit me when I am all alone in the dark ... I know we all have them .... So what is your greatest fear? what scares you? What has hurt you and revisits you ?? Tell me yours and I will tell you all mine in my most intense and deepest post yet (next week sometime)